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Thursday, September 18, 2008

i wanna move on without you.

i finally decided tht i wanted to let out my feelings that have been hidden all this while.sorry but this post has to be long .i never knew that i would feel this hurt . yes its hard to accept the fact tht u have left . and i have cried just too much fr u. and i know i wanted all this stop. but why to you have to keep hurting me. i admit tht im blind and stupid enough to fall fr ur words and blief u whn all u did was to cheat on me and give me fake hope. you said i was taking advantage on you but it ended up tht ur taking advantage of me. i have cried lots and lots of pail of tears for you. you set me up just so tht i will ask break frm you maybe because u want tht girl u have dreamt of and afraid u might not get her and therefore u did this . tell me isnt tht just too painfull for me to take in.

you teach me how love is like . u gave me this wonderful feeling of love. but i have yet to find the true meaning of love. i really hate how much i have loed you. for once i thought u were the one but sadly its all wrong. you're always with ur temptation fr pleasure but have u spare athought fr me ?? you kept blaming me, my friends. well i have realised tht u have no rights to really blame them . i have truely made a big mistake by listening to you and leaving my friends behind just fr ur sake. i have hurt them alot. they have the rights to have me whenever they want. Without you who do i go to -my friends. they are the best damn thing tht ever exist in my life. they cheered me up when im down. then gave me advise to move on. they will just try their best do anyt they could so i would not feel down . this just clearly shows tht my friends are more imprtnt than you.

you have hurt me alot i swear reallyreally lots. causing me to sob fr like more than 5 days..1 week?? and i have just wasted them on you. oh when will i stop crying fr u?? its not like u read wht i wrote who cares if u do or dont . so wht if th whole world is reading this. this ishow i felt. you want me to forget all tht have happen ? whn u told me tht i broke down.just wht more do you want frm me. how much longer will u treat me this way. so wht ur trying to say tht all tht have happen btwn us is just a waste?? ass laa. i dont go thru 1 year plus fr nothing okayy. it maybe easy fr u but it aint easy fr cause why i have those faith and hopes fr uu.

i thought i was able to and had manage to move on without u letting all those past fade away but its coming bck into my mind. few days ago i kept having flashbck of th memories. well unfrtunately i cried again. for you. i wish i could stop but i cant. i swore its hard . but i have to keep praying hard to god tht so tht god could give me the strength and patience to move on without you. well all has ended . if tue love happens i dono wht i will do. all this is fate fr me. and maybe this is th best fr me . and i can prove to you tht i can move on without you.
well i have said enough for now. at least i feel relieve . altho i did cry i realise tht this tears isnt meant fr u. theres many others better than u . Lastly , i blief in karma. wht goes arnd comes arnd btol??
IM OUT . JERKK!!!

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